Have you ever watched SKINS US version on MTV..??
well cadie’s character reminds me so much of myself.
My wasted youth that is.
I was know for having a pharmacy in my purse. I never looked at people in the eye when I talked to them because half the time I was heavily sedated with OXY’s and mix cocktail of anti-psychotics [ANTI you name it I had it]
I wasn’t taken seriously because I was so different from everyone else. Lunch time came and I would literally go into a fringe of anxiety. Most of the med’s caused high sense of paranoia, lack of appetite, insomnia and worst of all numbness of emotions. I remember starting to have behavioral problems around the time I started drinking.
couch surfin’ - drugs - alcohol - abandoned houses - so called friends
it was all me
how the fuck did I change? I still can’t wrap my mind around it. I overcame so much why is it playing back now. Meeeh -_-